Captain Sparky - Some Things We Best Forget lyrics

I've started to erase this last year.

Replacing everything I came to fear.

But my head's still trapped inside your sheets.

More and more I think that I killed me.

Growing up under florescent hallways,

Brother lied under hospital tray,

Now I call this place my second home,

Some fears die - others grow.

And I would take his hand and go to the river,

Crisp ice on eyes just made me stronger,

I'd do all his drugs to make it go away,

I still drink. I drink it all away.

Sitting in parking lots, watching stars rise,

Sitting in parking lots, I'll never feel right,

Riding my bike until my face feels numb,

I can't remember the last time these hands were mine,

I fucking hate everything I've become.

Maybe I'm older, but I'm not wiser,

I still feel just as blinded.

And I drove your car alone myself that night,

The heat didn't work - skidded over black ice,

And you walked me home, stumble drunk again,

To a dream that you had that I didn't fit in.

And I swear I tried as best as I could,

To fix broken bridges and make better on good,

I'd follow you, you know that's just me,

It's not what I want but it's how I breath.

Maybe I'm older, but I'm not wiser,

I still feel just as blinded.